Tag: stillborn
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The Weight of “Someday”
My entire life has been filled with “somedays.” Someday I would graduate high school and then college, someday I would become a nurse, someday I would have a pretty house, someday I would have my dream wedding, and someday I would be a mother. From a young age, I knew exactly what my life would…
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My Relationship With My Body After Stillbirth
After being conditioned my entire life to believe the body of a woman is literally made to create and sustain life, I felt betrayed when my body created life and then took it away. Correct me if I’m wrong, but I believe most women (especially those who have experienced pregnancy and postpartum) have at least…
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The Quietest Mother’s Day
Last year on Mother’s Day, I told my husband I hoped to be a mom by the next Mother’s Day. We had just started trying to conceive our first baby and had no idea what the next year of our lives would look like. I was pregnant by the end of July. My dream to…
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Dear Nathan: A Letter to my Stillborn Son on his Due Date
The weight of losing you is nearly unbearable sometimes, but I would go through it all again just to know the joy of loving you. Dear Nathan, I never imagined April 10, 2025, would look this way. I remember when I found out I was pregnant and immediately took to the internet to calculate your…